I can be angry at my lord

 Guru teaches that one can also be angry at the lord.

It is an emotion that is within the order.

It is an emotion that is understandable given the order that is in itself a manifestation of the lord.

Who is this lord, who is all pervasive in and as the orderly manifestation.

The individual thoughts and emotions and desires and likes and dislikes and wants and needs and consciousness are included in this lord. Every other individual is included in this lord.

And the lord of all these individuals is a manifestation of this lord.

This lord, lords over all the individuals and all the entities, and he himself is the existence that lends oneself as 'is' in and through as one and all.

He is non dual.

He is real when we understand himself as trascending the names and forms.

Transcending the names and forms with which he is manifest, he is the unmanifest consciousness, that is sakshi chaitanyam. Manifest as all beings he is the lord.

His manifestation is a miracle, is mithya, like a dream. The fact is that he is manifest.

The fact is that he is ishvara.

I accept him, I need not dismiss him.

Without dismissing there can be non duality when mithya is understood.

Mithya is understood as non dismissive way of resolving him as one and non dual formless being in ones understanding, like resolving pot in clay in ones understanding.

So in my understanding this lord is non dual consciousness alone and nothing else. Isnt that enough.