Finding Acceptance

The problem of self not being acceptable to oneself, is something that has its basis in ignorance.
It also has its complex built around childhood experiences, that lead to a sort of a covering, that covers ones personality with a layer of the unconscious hurts and guilts and experiences where one felt truly limited and helpless.

This past experience of guilt hurt helplessnes and smallness was cocooned into the unconscious by the order, by bhagavan, and acts as a barrier to owning up to ones original free bigness or purnatvam as ones own nature.

In fact this purnatvam, doesnt even have anything to do with ones actions or karma, it is totally free from karma.

This purnatvam is rooted in the now, it is beyond praise or insult, it is pure and ever free, ever whole as the very NOW, and devoid of past present or future This now is the basis of the universe, the truth of everything including time.

Time is this now, the beings are born, and fry and return to their abode in the self that is now.

This is your state, and anything else, is a covering of the projections born of the unconscious.
The unconscious projects certain ideas relating to the self, as though the self is in a particular role.

The truth is that in any role, while the self IS, the self is oneself free from that role and is asangaH,  or a witness and a non doer. While the role is not free from I, I is entirely free from the role, or from taking on as the performer of that role.

I remain the eternal sakshi, the witness, the cause, the AdhAra, the basis and whole pure limitless ananda. Not only is that the nature of the self, self alone is the nature of all that is here. What we call as universe is pervaded by the all pervading self, and jagat exists in me. I am the ishvara referred to in the scriptures, I am verily shiva vishnu and brahma.

I am the various celestial beings such as indra varuna and agni, I am the gandharvas, the apsaras and the special beings. I am the lokas that enclose these beings, I am the law that rules them all.

I am the birds and the beasts, I am the forests, I am indeed the one who rules over forests. I am the lord of devas and asuras alike, I am verily shiva who roams in the dark with snakes on his body and sorrounded by ganas.

I am the very vishnu who has taken avataras, I am indeed the holy brahman, who is extolled as atma, and as purusa in the vedas.

I am indeed the paramatma, the parvati devi I am.

Why should there be any worry, with regard to the unconscious , is indeed my order, and me alone.

I am free from karma, past present or future, while time itself has its being in me, time being a name and form referring to me, the being who is time.

I exist as ishvara, and all that is here exists in me, I being the basis for the jagat.