Brahman

Brahman is both shuddha chaitanyam in sushupti, the same shuddha chaitanyam appears as a dream does, as jagat kAranam brahman, and kAryam brahman in what makes it a waking state or a dream state, just like jewels etc are gold. So even this waking dream remain as non dual gold alone, or water alone, but the status of this waking state is mithya only. In this mithya state alone we have autism etc and all the worries and so on. 

With this knowledge I can operate in this mithya jagat within the laws here, by undertaking karma etc that can potentially neutralize prarabdha and mitigate the damage it may cause as a result. 

Japa yagna is one such yagna, vedanta mananam is also going to lend some punya phalam for sure. I will use this for loka kshemam and within that I can say my daughter is my loka. Aham brahmasmi. Daughter is brahman, she means the world to me, she is my loka. Hence whatever I do for loka kshemam will most certainly bless her to the maximum possible extent. OM tat sat.

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 I ask forgivness for saying your name as likely I am not worthy of it

I ask forginvess for learning a mantra and chanting as likley i do not desrve that

I ask forgivness for even considering myself as pure satchitananda as you have not given me permission to do so

Even if I am that, I will not claim that, as I am not being given the title of deserving

OM

 Om mother

You are the lord of the universe, empress the queen

From your iccha shakti every leaf moves

You have decided to have your daughter prarthana be born with a brain divergence

Its your wish and desire based on some karma

Your desire is never compassionate alone 

Its also just

So you are defntly punishing us for a past crime

We seek thy forgiveness as a family

We seek thy forgiveness as a family

We seek thy forgiveness as a family

We are zeroes and we lack everything

We are zeroes we lack everything

We dont have the wherewhithal to even ask forgiveness

So with your permission asking forgivenesss for using your power to ask forgiveness

We are neecha for sure for the crimes we had erstwhile commited

We are neecha for sure for the worst beings we were in the past janmas

We are neecha in your view also, you have placed us on the worst place

And we deserve this place as its our own karma you've reminded us of our place

Our place is horrible we accept this lowliness

We are the lowliest of creatures , we are i know as per your wish worthy of societal lowliness

and looked down upon by everyone 

We will stay that way i am sorry for breathing and making your creation dirty

My breath is a dirt that has stained you, our family is a blot on your name

I have nothing more to say as one more word will shame you so forgive us a inifinte times

For we are not even worth forgiveness

OM  

Hearbreak

 She is a piece of my heart

Her life is precious

Her breath, her voice, her smile, her love

Her expectation filled eyes full of joy of living

Her unending cuteness, her every little joyous step

I love her deeply 

I do not mind if ultimate truth is she is not mine or me

In this body and mind I am father

And in this body I care for her deeply 

I cannot see her as a person without expression

I cannot see her as having been born not human

Her human birth is always divine 

No matter what her mental shape

Isvara is me and knows my tears

and supports them

And the future is not my making but ours

And we shall sustain and maybe

Just a little maybe

A glimmer remains

OM

Non Duality

Atma is not just witness consciousness - its isvara the mother and father of the universe where maya shakti is non separate from atma. With non separate maya shakti isvara atma is the projector, maintainer and resolver of the universe that is jagat otherwise called as isvara alone appears as all three, but is one non dual gold that never became all three, that gold is atma I, now there cannot be any other. 

Remove the name and form intellectually; how by knowing that its status as experiencer is mithya status, its status as experienced is mithya status, in reality it is neither. It is super waker that is I

Maya shakti is not projected on atma, rather it is always present in atma non separate from atma

It is mithya

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